Friday, September 12, 2008

The Beginning

This is going to be a pretty sparse blog for a while I think. But I'm really getting tuned in to making greeting cards, honing my journaling skills more and doing more Hybrid Scrapping. So I needed a new home to house them. Thus A Soul's Heartbeat. That's what I feel like it's my soul that needs to step out and speak, say what lies within and share it with those that care to listen.

I'm just beginning to touch my feet to the waters of Hybrid Digital Scrapping and Card Making. But it's so rewarding to see digital become physical. Something you can touch and feel and relate to. No matter how much I love my computer and love Photo Shop it takes on a whole new life when I hit the print button and acutally see it up close and personal.

I see it in the faces of my family when I print a new table top book. How they look at my creations page to page and the comments they make. It makes my heart swell like I've really done something out of the ordinary. My sister keeps telling me I've finally found myself. A way to get all those inside feeling to the surface and out.

I've always tended to be someone who pushed the emotions that were tender down a layer and piled others on top, thinking they would be buried for all time. Doesn't work, I may push and shove and speak my mind but that's only a cover up for the turmoil that swirls around in the pit of my stomach and the corners of my mind. All the things I'm thinking but never have the courage to speak. I wonder at this age what am I afraid of, what could possibly be the horrid outcome of really saying what's in my heart.

It's the same old answer, I think. That old baggage I've carried all my life, if I speak they won't like me and that's been my quest for as long as I've had consious thought. I want everyone to like me, to want to be around me, to enjoy my company, to want to share time with me. Perhaps that's why I'm here who knows.

Well, I've sure gotton off topic but I just wanted to explain what I'm thinking here and what I hope to accomplish.

I hope you'll check out my other blog Reflections of Northwest Lady, sharing a little of me from the inside out. That' the one that houses all my digital scrapbooking pages, or a lot of them.

Thanks for listening!